Hardest Blog ever

Well, I don't want to do this...but I must.
I have been really procrastinating updating this family blog because I know that when I send out pics and updates of the boys that dad won't be on the other end waiting to receive them.

I've not had a whole lot of time to absorb what I have been through. Immediately after coming back to Texas from the funeral, mom and I were swimming in legal stuff and getting dad's estate settled before I returned home. No one should have to do this after losing a loved one.

The minute that I got home, I was immediately thrown into my new ministry that was set to kick off Feb 21st and I had to write the bible study as well as all the other details of it all. So, now I have a little down time and hopefully time to absorb what has just happened to our family.

Although, I am not sure I really want to. The minute I begin to think on it the pain begins to spill in and I find myself pushing the thoughts out so the pain will go away. It still doesn't seem real. I just keep waiting for dad to show back up so we can pick up where we left off. Every turn I make, evey step I take....I see him in my mind. Almost everything I touch or do seems to bring up a memory of him. He's everywhere yet not here -all at the same time. I miss him so.

I thought that I would post these pics first before I send any out of our daily family stuff.These pics are from the day after the funeral. I wanted to go back out to the burial site and pick up some of the beautiful flowers that were given to us. We brought a lot of them back so we could enjoy them while they were still fresh.